personally meeh

getting too old?

2005-06-15T19:31:00.000-07:00

been out for a week, so got a lot of mails to catch up with.
then i came across with one of our e-group emails.
..... update from anavy: she's got therese anne & is happily married.
..... news from donna: she's marrying next year.
..... berna (quoted): "mga tiguls na ta..." ("we're oldies already...")

hmmm... does this bother me?
of course i love kids and dream to have my own.
but it doesn't make me "rush with the flow."

people get pressured with peers when being asked, "how old are you?"
and "what? no boyfriend? still single??"

i got inspired with aunt tessie.
i believe she married at the old age (50?).
i think that's quite cute -- married for love and companionship.
not to be mistaken for lust.

sometimes, people tend to marry becoz they get pregnant out of wedlock.
sometimes, that won't be a wise decision.
especially if you think that's a mistake, why go for another mistake?

i know a friend who got into a relationship
just becoz she's heartbroken from a previous one.
and she admitted to me that she's made a wrong move.

peer-pressures...
society's norms...

you don't have to please everybody coz it's never possible.
you can only please yourself and be happy with the choices you make in your life...

i learned that from that "freshman's experience" (which i am still trying to get out of...).

happiness blooms from within.
never get it from other persons or things coz that would be temporary.

being single is a choice.
it's not a dilemma.
age doesn't matter - in every aspect of life, i should say.
(not only for love, but also for education and experience.)

if you got a special someone in your life, be thankful.
if you got a special friend in your life, be thankful.
if you're single and happy about it, be thankful.

always count your blessings, not your shortcomings.
never compare.
otherwise, you'd either despair or boast.

and the best thing is,
have Christ as center of your heart and everything gets well,,,

be happy!
mwah!!!

cross the memory lane...

2005-06-15T19:04:00.000-07:00

"Special Memory" - Lea Salonga
- this song's for the person(s) who has come to my life and left a soft spot in my heart...

You will always be a special part of me
You will always be a special memory
I`ll always cherish wonderful moments
You have given me
You are in my heart wherever I may be

All the times we shared will always be to me
Songs my heart will sing refreshing melodies
I`ll put together all of your laughter
Like a symphony
I`ll remember you wherever I may be

I`ll put together all of your laughter
Like a symphony
I`ll remember you wherever I may be
I`ll remember you wherever I may be
I`ll remember you wherever I may be

"I'll Always Love You" - Michael Johnson
- this song is so memorable for me. i hope for him, too. ;p
i keep on wishing this would be his song for me.
but i know, this will remain to be a wishful thinking...

Standing by my window, listening for your call
Seems I really miss you after all
Time won't let me keep these sad thoughts to myself
I'd just like to let you know, I wish I'd never let you go

And I'll always love you
Deep inside this heart of mine
I do love you
And I'll always need you
And if you ever change your mind
I'll still, I will love you

I wish you'd never left me but love's a mystery
You can break a heart so easily
Oh the days and nights reveal how much I feel for you
Time has come for me to see how much your love has meant to me

And I'll always love you
And if you ever change your mind
I'll still, I will love you

Time like a river keeps on rolling right on by
Nothing left for me to do
So I watch the river rise

And I'll always love you
Deep inside this heart of mine
I do love you
And I'll always need you
And if you ever change your mind
I'll still, I will
And I'll still, I will love you

happy birthday and goodbye?

2005-06-08T03:01:00.000-07:00

hi!

hope this time i got it right - happy birthday!

m also taking this opportunity to apologize if you felt
i had been pestering you all those years.
sorry but couldn't help being true to myself. ;p

nwe, as a gift on this special day of yours,
this will be the last time m gonna bother you
as you may wish (kahit sakit sa buot! hahaha).
seriously, m still thankful for you being a part of me.

may God bless you always in all your endeavors.
take care!

always meeh,

reminiscing... Part II

2005-06-08T02:10:00.000-07:00

(continued...)

but i also like my COLLEGE YEARS!
.....met different people, different friends
.....encountered different struggles
.....learned how to be independent
.....there's more fun
.....there's more to life than getting a degree

first year in college was the most challenging year for me.
that's the time i was trying to adjust to adapt...
but there's so much fun around you'd forget you're in a different world.

*one of our dormmates, Ba-Se, got sick and couldn't attend our math 17 class.
.....the next day, everybody was cajoling the 4 of us when we got in.
.....coz Noreen, Love, & I didn't go to school as well the day before.
.....bond of sisterhood - when one is gone, the rest has gone! ;p

*my bestfriend since first year is Kring.
.....we've been in the same course
.....we've been classmates in all subjects -- we really managed!
..........(except for pol sci. that maldita girl who's handling registration
..........during enrollment separated us without our consents! hmp!
..........we missed more fun tuloy!)
.....we've been together in all "adventures"
.....we've shared almost all secrets
.....you can say we're almost sisters, if not twins! ;p

*i learned how to wash my own clothes,
.....otherwise, i'd travel for 4 hours just to have my clothes washed at my sis'

*i learned to eat instant foods!
.....noodles... junkfoods...

*twas turning point of my life - spiritually.
.....not that i wasn't close with Him. but i was able to get closer...
.....thanks Pastor Bakus.

*twas also a turning point for my lovelife.
.....as i have said, i was never serious with the opposite sex.
.....but it seemed everyone at the dorm was having her own crush.
..........talk about peer-pressure.
..........so, i asked Ba-Eng to find me a crush.
...............stupid thing, right? talk about freshmen!
.....so, that's how it started.
..........i played with fire, couldn't get off the fire.
...............good thing he didnt take advantage.
...............or was i repulsive for him? (oh no!)
..........i don't know if that was love. maybe infatuation?
.....until right before graduation, i got into a relationship - with a different fire.
..........and decided to get off the fire not quenching my innocent thirst for love.

college was supposed to be a maturing stage...
.....in some ways, yes.
.....in some ways, not.

learning is a continuous process.
maturity doesn't come with age - it does with experience. and knowledge.

to college studes, don't rush.
you have the time on your side.
just learn in every process, in every walk of your life.
enjoy life. enjoy youth.

reminiscing...

2005-06-08T01:26:00.000-07:00

HIGH SCHOOL LIFE - was, accordingly, the happiest stage in school.

*well, i got good friend then but lost contact except for daisy.
.....we were "Double DR" - daisy, debbie, radz, & rebecca.

*there was a time all of us in our section cut class. imagine!
.....our teacher then almost failed all of us in his subject! hahaha

*those were the only times when you would be required
..........to get in front (at the flag pole) when you get late for flag ceremony.

*i enjoyed JS Proms (3rd & 4th yrs), esp having my best buddy, Al, as my partner.

*well, those years, i seemed (as i realize just now) somewhat boy-ish:
.....never considered having any bf.
.....i was so astig that whenever a classmate courted me (even he's my crush)
..........i immediately turned him down.
.....it's enough for me to have them as my crushes and best buddies,
..........but never as bf's. (strict parents ko eh! hahaha)

*i've got lots of crushes then and was even open about it with my family.
.....i was so naive (well, i still am) when it comes to my emotions...
.....it's so cool coz they're the ones who were so kiliiiig! duh!

*and of course, i miss my best buddy teacher, sir jiggs:
.....i won't forget the night he asked me to represent our school at the last moment
..........for an extemporaneous speech contest.
.....i was really so hesitant but when i saw his face getting disappointed, i decided otherwise.
.....that was the most memorable night with him -
..........he lifted me up after the contest coz we bagged the trophy!
.....(by the way, he's gay! and i love him as my best buddy teacher.
..........and i know he loves me too as his best buddy student. miss him...)

hope you had nice and funny memories in high school, too....

(to be continued...)

my name is...

2005-06-05T17:23:00.000-07:00

start of classes...
as if!
well, just want to reminisce the memories i had during those days...

this is my first blog.
and on the first day of classes, (usually) we had orientations that would include introducing ourselves, stating our names...
so, i would like to do the same here at blogger.
but with a different twist.
this blogspot of mine is really personally meeh!

for my real name:

Your Japanese Name Is...

Kumiko Inokuma

hmmm....
how about my nick?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Sachi Konoe

hmm...
what if i were a boy?

Your Japanese Name Is...

Ren Kajuji

ooops, never mind! ;)
well, have fun while studying (or working) for "all work and no play, makes Sachi a dull girl!"
wanna try this one for yourself? go ahead! have some fun, too!

What's" your Japanese Name?

bye for now...
mwah!